you said to me all those years ago you were trying to quit. and what did i do? encourage you to get back into it....

how did you even forgive me...? i told you it was your only solution.... i told you you'd feel better if you kept doing it and that therapy wouldn't help. it didn't work for me.. so i thought it was completely worthless...

am i in the wrong though? i mean therapy is hard to get into.. and most therapists dismissed me.. and the waiting lists are long.... wouldn't it make sense i turned to temporary solutions? but how long until those temporary solutions become more permanent......

what am i even doing with my life man.... - p